what was that suppose to mean?

so you found the hidden meaning in that song?

no wait, it was plain obvious

i have not put it down not because i don't want to

it's because i can't bear to

when the time comes when i can do

i will disappear faster than you think

don't take too long

afterall, i can't hold on to thin air

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used to always sing this to my friends

about time i listen more carefully to what i was singing

they suddenly became so clear, those memories

that's all i can say

i WAS happy all the time

i just have to be selfish for myself

i'm still not okay

but i tell them i'll be fine

thats the truth

my friends are all around the corners

waiting to catch me

me? i was hanging on to something

i don't even know if it will save me

but then it hurt too much to hold on

so i got to let go

i landed soft

but the impact was hard

it will probably ache for some time

and until that day comes

i have to avoid..

avoid anything that makes my heart whisper

"don't let go"

yeah these are anger words

i just found something that gave me a wake up call online..
funny as it seems..many ppl say that they are heart broken
but in actual fact..at least a good 80% of their mind is creating the illusions to make the heart feel pained
well,
even so, many including i will still feel it this way
cos there isn't other alternative cures other than time at the moment so screw the logical thinking.

i'm that straight, when i'm angry
you'll know
when i'm sad, you'll see tears
what is there to hide?
so i dun believe in being wise..cos being wise..
you have to stay composed and surpress everything down so your guts show!

so how am i feeling now?
hurt
cos it hurts when you don't even try
admit it, it screwed up and the 1st thing u showed me was your escape route
i would rather you stand up and debate your way through like how you r good at it.

i want a second chance..
not for you but for me..
it's a 2 way route depending on your ans
even if i chose the wrong one, i will pick myself up..walk back and take the other route
cos i path my own route.



only when the sun starts to set

i would fall into it's darkness

good thing is, it won't be for long cos i get so easily tired at night..

yet i wake so easily in the mornings now..

this isn't heart break?

isn't it ageing?!

i mean it when i say i appreciate all my friends

they r really doing a lot for me..

n a good job distracting me too

but i'm a bit confused now..m i suppose to await something?

or not at all?

why am i a sedimental song lover? T.T someone take my ipod away

It can be done

i need time

just like everyone else

i'm not going through this alone

many out there are going through the same thing

mending their hearts

it's very painful at times..

i kept wanting to control the tears

but sometimes i'm glad the tears flow

cos i know i will feel better after that

even my ear phones are taking the initiative to stop working so i don't listen to music n tear on the bus

i hope that as the days go by

it gets easier

n my posts brings more smiles n worries

i m not able to shut u out of my life completely

u still hold a special place

don't worry

i m keeping busy for the sake of myself

i will b fine...soon

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sunrise and sunset i hate you

who m i kidding?

i really tot i was gonna b ok..

n i was ok

until today..

i wish that oct next yr will come faster

so i can be as far away as oct this yr

for now,

avoid escalaters, avoid music, avoid waking up, avoid being alone

Fear

I'm now very afraid, very very afraid

i m afraid cos i can't seem to read your tweets

i m afraid cos i no longer see us on your FB nor your MSN

i m afraid that this will end

i m really afraid we can't work it out

i m afraid when i ask you what happen

you said: you're discussing hw and we'll tok abt it maybe tml

i m afraid...

of losing you

would you?

would you be so kind

as to allow me to feel that you are beside me when we're together?

i'm not a promise you have to keep

nor do i wish to become one

i don't need big plans to satisfy me

i'm not high maintanence either

if it's an hour or even half

i just need to feel there is nothing else except us involved

Doodle Words

GOSH! why is it so difficult to just set up a blog?

As complicated as it can be,

i just need a simple one.

ijustneedtopouritout.

As time goes by, i will invite more people to view this blog.

At the moment,

i just need a space for my thoughts to flow.

I think a lot.

and i really mean a lot.

Many a times, these thoughts stay within and are never let out.

It doesn't affect me all the time, but it can overwelm.

every time i feel i need to pen it down

the words just POOF! gone.

Today, it's about what ifs.

What if we never this

what if we never that

there are a few times, i come home disappointed

there are times when they ask, it hurts

there are times i'm just grateful for what i've been given and expect no more

will this become a routine for more than the expected duration?

i always tell myself, it's still early

then y is it never to early to feel the pang?

maybe i've placed you too near too fast

maybe i've not exited from the honeymoon period

I'm a willing party

tomorrow, this won't be an issue no more