Saturday, September 29, 2012

totally pointless but it happens

i don't enjoy arguments/ quarrels. It is pointless. why can't patience take over earlier?
Why did understanding have to walk away at such a crucial time?
we just have to face it.
shit happens and we have to learn to face it.
note. WE..not me alone.


Sunday, September 9, 2012

A new phase, a new home, a new family

That is where I am headed. 
My boyfriend and I just selected our flat yesterday. It was a smooth going process.
As a person who thinks alot, I sometimes wonder if our future together under the same roof would be so smooth sailing.
I guess not. There are so much to adapt and so much to compromise. I believe that we can put in the effort in making our home and future marriage blissful. For now, the most important thing is to work hard for that home. Saving money has always been my weakness. Hopefully my guy can control this :P
He is starting on on a new job tomorrow! May the Monday blues be seen just above the sky and not right over our heads!
 Dardar i love you!^^ Our paths ahead might be challenging but with you by my side, I can make it through!
I will support you the best way I can!
I am off to look for some ideas on how to design a beautiful cozy home within 90sqm!XD

Sunday, October 30, 2011

You don't get it

you know, i hate this sentence
if you don't get it,
i will explain till u do.
so do the same for me.
telling me i don't get it also tells me
"you don't know me so fuck off and shut up."
yes i do read a lot into it..
that is precisely why i'm the girl..
they say Virgos are perfectionist, that's probably why they want things their way
im no different..
if that's a problem, will you accept it or ask me to change?
if your answer is for me to change
..then you?
i do think i know you well enough..but i also know why the quarrels start..
I'm alot like you actually, I like to win, I like to out talk people, I don't like to say sorry and i am not as forgiving..thats not all..Im sacarstic and so are you..
I do think its more of the similarities that clashes and not the differences. If i was different, i would jus listen and ignore..but im not..i want a say too..
but its not characters that brought us together, so im not about to let it bring us apart..
we'll work it out..I know we will..right?

Saturday, August 6, 2011

only one word: DISAPPOINTED

its good to be confident but not overconfident
what happened to being open to advice?
to place it bluntly, the car isn't yours.
if it was not a willing deed..don't volunteer
its not a driver i need
its someone who CARES enough to send me home safely
cos my life means a thing and so does yours
to place it bluntly again
my life was given to me by my parents, not you
the very least i deserve is to feel safe in your hands
unless you feel there is no need to
then im more than willing to travel home myself.
it was for you that i travel to your coonvenient
but now its such a chore to bring me back home safely
then y did i have to go to such extend to have myself being RUSHED home so many times?
im disappointed

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

fragile

As fragile as it looks
i will cherish 
i will protect
as long as you still want me to
love,
me

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I should not try to change you

They say that one should never try to change their other half.
I do agree. After all, isn't the initial man the one I fell for?
As they go on together, we find that change is all around
Do we, then, change?
I believe that mutual understanding is very important
if we are to plan the rest of our lives together,
we need to work out what we need to change together.
Not what one party alone need to change.
If moving ahead and making decisions is done by only one party, how then should the other support?
blindly?
I don't really think I would be helping if i support him blindly.
I cannot foresee the future, but i can tell the difference between a rational and irrational decision.
Wanting to bear everything does not make a boy a man.
Learning to listen and share is.
he is everything good. he cares, shares, listens, loves, respects, is faithful etc.
but the opposite shows when the foul mood arises.
nothing goes in and debates starts
a hole burns in this relationship and we need to spend time to mend it
I can only pray that we grow stronger and not weaker from these.